Garth....

Garth Brooks has it right when he says some of Gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. (you're singing, aren't you??) 

I'm grateful He didnt answer mine.

Please don't get me wrong. I'm not grateful to Him because I still don't have children. I'm grateful because He knew. He knew who I was with, and He knew this man wasn't the right man for me or my future children. 

My wedding and my husband where everything I had ever dreamed of. We did it the 'right way' or so I thought. We met on a blind date through mutual

friends. We hit it off. One date turned into the next and so on. Late night phone calls, stories, you name it.  We never lived together before tying the knot. We could have but we knew the statistics, (and we were both Catholic- if you're Catholic, I'm certain you know all about that old Catholic guilt!) so he had his place uptown and I had my cute little starter home in Lake Wylie. We dated almost 2 years before he popped the question. Again, I thought we were doing it right. 

We were engaged on 11/28 - ironically this would become our house number a few years later. We were married on Saturday, July 16, 2005. My father's birthday. My father passed away from cancer right after my 14th birthday. What better way to keep his memory alive than getting married on his birthday. 

His birthday is still July 16; my anniversary no longer exists. 

Our Honeymoon- Alaska because a beach was boring and for 'normal' couples. We were going to break the mold. 

What I didn't expect was for him to break my heart or his current wife to

break up our marriage. 

I have laughed,

I have cried,

I have lost sleep,

I have cried,

I have secluded myself,

I have cried,

I have seen a therapist,

I have cried,

I have sat with my girls and 'plotted' my revenge,

I have cried,

I still cry now, but it's different. Life is unpredictable. I have no
clue where I'm headed or where I'll find myself. What I do know is that my heart has mended and I'm much stronger than I ever realized.